You've Got Some Kind of Magic

Dear Jasso,

About.. ohh I don't know... 8 or 9 months ago you caught my eye. Yeah, at the time I had boyfriend. I tried to deny my feelings for you but it was impossible. Every time I shared a moment with you someone would tell me...

"You look so happy"
"Your face is glowing"
"There's something different about you, in a good way"

But I just brushed it off.. or at least that what I wanted to make it seem like. But I knew the truth. It was you. You had that affect on me. You listened to me when I wasn't feeling like I belonged here, when I had problems with the one I love, and you gave me the attention I've been wanting for a long time. You swept me off my feet and you knew it.

You took me out to eat.
You took me to the movies.
You took me to the zoo.
You took me to the game.
You took me home.
You took care of me.

I fell for every word you said, typed, texted and I so easily gave in to you. You had me right where you wanted and I thought you cared so I satisfied your every need those nights we were alone. I gave you apart of me I gave almost no one and it seems like now you'll have that piece of me forever. I won't ever have it back.

It's been 8 or 9 months now? and we were nothing, so why am I sitting here alone in my room still thinking of you and those times we shared? It lasted weeks, not even months. It still feels like my heart drops into my stomach when I see those pictures of you and her. Sometimes I wish that could have been me just so I wouldn't have these walls around me. I blame you for them.

I blame you for my insecurities.
I blame you for the reason why I can't be with the one I love.
I blame you for tricking me into thinking you care but all you wanted was a few late night booty calls.
You were older, a 3rd year, you knew exactly what you were doing; I didn't, I was just a freshman, who fell for the first guy to say some sweet little words.

So thanks; you've really made me into a stronger person. So strong, everyone else is scared of me.

PS: Thanks for helping your new girlfriend move right across the street my apartment. I guess I'll be seeing you and her a lot then huh? Of ALL the places in IV, she couldn't have picked a better place.

PSS: Your new girlfriend is quite the sell-out. All decked out in her new Dodger gear but all the this time she's been claiming to be a huge Giants fan. What a waste of Dodger merch.